Thoughts this time around...

I took a break for awhile with my blog. I've wanted to enjoy these 2 weeks that Matt has had off from school and even though it's been very low key and quiet around here, we have been having a great time as a family. Reese more then ever is in love with her daddy! She follows him everywhere around our home, wanting to play, wanting him to make her laugh and calling out "dada" when she doesn't see him. I love it! Today Reese did something she's NEVER done before and I almost didn't know how to take it. She crawled after dad, waited for him outside the bathroom, went to him as soon as he opened the door and when I put out my hands to take her she turned away from me!! I laughed out loud! What??? She has quickly become a daddy's girl! I knew it would happen but I didn't think it would be so soon. It really does warm my heart, though. Despite feeling a little rejected and hurt, I'm so thankful she loves her daddy and wants to be with him. Come Monday though...I'm going to have a sad little girl on my hands.

Getting back to the reason for this post...just wanted to share my thoughts on the second go-round of pregnancy. It's amazing how quickly you forget. I really think the Lord does that to protect us from ourselves. If I had remembered how sick I felt, how awful food smells and tastes and how much I just.want.to.sleep I don't think baby #2 would be here. Matt would agree that this time things are just a lot harder a lot longer. Maybe it has to do with having a 9 month old. Maybe it's because I'm not working and don't have a way to distract my mind all day. Or maybe it just really is very different from the last time. We are praying for the Lord's grace just to get through these yucky days. 

On a happier note...today marks week 12 for baby! 2 more weeks and I'm in the second trimester. Wow! I learned that our baby is developing it's reflexes and it's intestines are moving in to it's abdominal cavity. I love God's incredible design of babies. Each week it just blows me away to find out what is changing and growing in this little life and how it all gives God glory as He lovingly weaves babies together. So so precious! Even though I haven't heard this little one's heartbeat (and I can't wait for the day I do) this little creation is a testament to God's kindness and love poured out to us. When I remember these truths it makes how I'm feeling a little easier to bare. 

And to catch up the blog on the little details... 

• I'm due July 14th. 
• Reese and baby will be 16 months apart.
• We are pursuing to deliver with midwives again.
• We both would love another girl.
• God is our provider and we are resting in Him!

A picture of what a 12 week baby looks like!